I Was Born Today....a few years ago...

Today is my...GULP...32nd birthday. I remember vividly the anticipation of my big 3-0 and it seems like I blinked and I have a little boy and am 32. I take solitude in the fact that I can still say I am in my "early 30's". HAHA! I have been having a very nice and peaceful day so far and have been having a great time reading all the birthday emails and facebook wishes from my friends and family. I have most especially been overwhelmed by all the wishes on Facebook...the mass quantity of sweet notes has been making me smile all day. What fun!

Jer came home from work last night with fresh flowers and a card for me. The flowers are beautiful and the card was incredibly sweet and brought tears to my eyes. At the end it said, "ps: do you have the time?". I looked up at him like he was crazy, at which point he pulled my Raymond Weil watch out of his pocket. He gave me that watch as a gift when we were just dating and it is my most precious possession along with my wedding rings. The battery has been dead for ages and lord knows I don't have time to take it to a jeweler, but I am so used to wearing it that I have continued to do so regardless. Well, he stole it from my jewelry box and had the battery replaced! I thought that was the cutest and most thoughtful gift...that watch continues to have so much sentimental value to me! Not to mention that now when he asks me what time it is, I can actually tell him. haha!

It seems like there is a great big dividing line between my twenties and thirties. I was pregnant for my 30th, so the transition in lifestyle was already marked. My 29th birthday was celebrated with me in all my pre-baby splendor. My office had been decorated in a leopard print theme by my co-workers and included a furry leopard print tiara that I pranced around in all day. I remember having margarita's at lunch (shhh!) and then going out with a huge group of friends for drinks and fun at our cool outdoor Mexican place in Grapevine. We used to go there all the time and drink pitchers of margarita's into the night. It has been well over a year since I have been now. I think I was a lot prettier and more fun to be friends with back then. I don't mean that in a sad or self-deprecating kind of way...it is purely logistics. Those were the days of my fancy car and lots of money spent on my appearance. Successful career, too many shoes and clothes to count, hair done every few weeks, nails always done perfectly, tanning weekly, the newest make-up and perfume...Jer and I had nobody to take care of but ourselves. I don't regret those years at all, we had SO much fun! I was certainly a little more shallow, but I think that is what your twenties should be all about. :-) NOW, post twenties....so much is different. My priorities have completely changed and now my life is dedicated to Colin. I certainly have my moments of missing getting pampered and I do miss being tan. hehe! However, Colin has made my life rich and full and meaningful. Jer and Colin are my whole life and I love that and relish taking care of them. I rock Colin every night before bed and sing "You Are My Sunshine" and "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" over and over to him, alternating between the two songs. Every single night, my heart swells and my chest feels like it will burst open from the feeling of his little head laying on my shoulder. I get that overwhelming feeling every time. I did not even know that feeling could exist before I was a mother. Now I get to chase him around parks and share picnics and jump in bounce houses and dance around the living room with him. I get to watch him dip peas in ketchup and dump whole bags of goldfish on the floor and listen to him yell, "A MESS!". We get to make dinner every night together and share a bowl of cereal every morning. Granted, all of this takes place in t-shirts and shorts and my hair is seriously in need of attention...but I am so honored that these are my thirties and I am sharing them with the most precious family I could ever have dreamed of having.